The last four years

Today marks four years. Four years in Kaylie-Lj time.
It also marks 5 weeks. 5 weeks until that time can resume the dynamic it began with.

Four years ago today, it was Sunday. It was warm, but not hot-- and I was wearing the bluish dress I sported at homecoming. I wore heels, but later regretted it. I didn't want to look too tall. Sitting in a pew with my family, I would nonchalantly glance around the spacious room, my eyes always returning to the first row of chairs to the right and about ten feet back. I wanted to see if Lj was looking at me, too. He wasn't, though. He's smooth.

In Sunday school, I answered a question wrong-- something about the tree of life. Lj corrected me, but not condescendingly. Just sweetly. I remember kicking myself for getting the wrong answer, though.

After church, I made my family come with me outside to "hang out." But of course I was watching for this cute boy who was staying across the street. Eventually, he left the house to talk to his buddy about me, which information I was obviously ignorant to, and so I invited myself along. We walk around the block, just chatting, and eventually ended up on the front lawn.

"I like you more than I've ever liked anyone."
"Yeah, me too."
"So you've never kissed anyone before?"
"I want to kiss you, if that's what you mean..."

Now, four years later, I am five weeks away from seeing this boy that I have loved for a great fraction of my life, but feel as though I have loved forever.




Will you share your life with me
Till the world explodes
Till there's no one left
Who has ever known us apart
There are so many dreams
I need to see with you...
I will never be complete
I will never be alive
I will never change the world
Until I do
-The Last 5 Years